Right now my head is absolutely swimming with ideas. It has always been my dream to work for myself. Since the birth of my daughter I have been trying to figure out a way to make a living doing something that I love that would allow me to spend as much time with her as possible. The birth of my son and the fast approaching fall semester (my last semester!!!) has added and urgency like you wouldn’t believe. It’s almost like I feel okay saying that I’m a SAHM while I’m in school. But once that’s over I feel like I should get “back out there”. Whatever that means. But I don’t really want to get back out there. I have more than my share of frazzled mommy moments but I am not looking forward to the “back out there” part of the deal. I think I need to put the fact that their is no pressure on me to go back to work out in the world. At least no pressure from my hubby. I sometimes get the snide remarks about how lucky I am to stay home all day with the kids. That may sound innocent but trust me the people saying it don’t mean it that way. I am very fortunate to have several family members who I can trust with my children when I have things to do and can’t bring them along. The fact that it’s really hard to get a job doing what I went to school for isn’t really helping matters either. Most of my work experience is in customer service and I am not anxious to go back to being yelled at all day.
So back to the too many ideas. That’s why they’re bubbling over. I’m feeling the pressure to get it going before school is over so I can make a seamless transition from student to entrepreneur. I know unrealistic. But I have the ideas nonetheless. So in the near future I’ll have things to run past you guys. The blog world has sparked so many ideas for me; I’m really excited and have been squeezing out time to try to work out how to get the ideas from my head and into my hands. That’s the hardest part. My knitting has been neglected somewhat but once I get things worked out I’ll have more time for it. I did manage to finish the back/front of Carla and have done about three inches of the other side so the knitting has not been banished completely.
Well in other news I chickened out on a haircut yesterday. My hair is longer now than it has been in a really long time and I have less time than ever to take care of it. It has been showing signs of neglect. So. I planned to cut it by about half. Very drastic. I don’t think I have ever cut so much at once before. I mean I’ve had short hair, in fact I loved the chin length bob I had when I meet my husband, but the stress level was high on this newly planned cut. I actually couldn’t sleep the night before. So I waited until the salon opened and went with a picture of what I wanted. I had been calling my husband non-stop trying to get a pep talk but his service drops at his job sometimes and I couldn’t get him. I called my sister and she told me I better not come home with my hair the same. So I was brave and I showed the stylist the place to cut and she squealed, “Aye mami no, you don’t like long hair. It’s so beautiful” It’s safe to say that was all I needed to hear. I had her cut about an inch and a half and hoped that would stop some on the breakage I’ve been having. My sister was not happy. I felt torn about the decision until I went outside today and was grateful that I could still make a ponytail = ).
I had some nice crafty moments with my daughter and sister today. My sister tried to make this
headband. She was not successful so there is no picture of that. She was a lot of fun to watch there at the machine. My daughter wanted to make a dressing room for her doll. (She actually wanted to make our bathroom her dressing room but I vetoed that idea.) So she pasted pieces of construction paper to the inside of a shoebox and made it her Polly dolls house. I made her a little patchwork quilt as a way to practice working with batting.
Polly still needs a bed as you can see she is sleeping on a card box = ). As long as Missy is pasting and cutting she seems happy so we’ll be seeing a lot more of that around this summer.